Saturday, December 11, 2010
Haha... Am I feeling tired or am I numb of everything already? I don't know why I have no interest in anything. Besides, I'm beginning to feel that things are beyond my control...
I don't know what people are thinking, I don't know why some people do certain things, I don't know what will happen to me, I don't know whether to believe people's words... Speaking of promises, I've a vivid impression of someone telling me harshly that promises are meant to be broken.
Perhaps I'm just too lousy to understand all these, that's why things are beyond my control and I'm losing faith. And because I'm losing faith, I feel lost; I don't know what to do, I don't know how to make decisions anymore.
I think I've changed. I'm becoming more and more cowardly. I don't conquer challenges anymore, I try to escape. I know very well this isnt the way to live life becos I can't escape forever and it's very irresponsible to leave problems unsettled. But why am I succumbing to such an irresponsible move? Because I've lost faith. I don't know what to do anymore. Everything seems to be beyond my control.
Geez, I need a life advisor.
1:04 AM
Till we meet again..
